The beginning of thinking thin...

So I didn’t just come out and say it, but I am getting weight-loss surgery, Lap-band surgery to be exact. I know what you are thinking…well I know what I have thought at least. Never in my mind did I ever think I would use this method in attaining the weigh-loss and healthy lifestyle that I have coveted of so many others. Never did I think it would come to this, but after dealing with weight problems and being healthy for over 19 years of my life. It is time to try something new. Some people may say I am taking the “easy” way out, and to them I say…do your research and really find out its not as easy as you think, and to those who support me in this endeavor and life change, I thank you. The decision to use this method is not one taken lightly or made in haste. I have definitely done my research as well as tried many different methods. But at age 29 5ft 4 inches and weighing in at 281 lbs my max, I have decided things have go to change. I want to be healthy and learn to live a healthy active lifestyle. I have dreams of being able to go skiing with my family and not killing myself while doing so. (Just a side note of that dream I have lived in Utah for 25 years of my life and never have gone skiing. Why not make it happen in my 30th year. ) I want so much to have children, but feel that bringing children into my life at this weight is not only dangerous, but unfair to them. I do not want my children to go through some of the same things that I went through.

On a lighter note my surgery is scheduled for the 29th of April. We are on the count down. Only 4 days away. It has been a long journey to be prepped and get insurance approval. Defiantly played the waiting game and now the day is fast approaching. Everyone asks how I feel, and really there is one way to respond to this, excited and nervous. Excited to start on this new adventure and succeed, and nervous to be sedated (never had surgery in my life) and nervous that I will fail. As I have noted above I have done many different things in my life to loose weight. I remember my first diet in 4th grade and it being the cabbage soup diet. I have tried so many different things in my life and failed or not reached that end result that I had set out to reach that I am nervous this will be the same thing. I am trying so hard to think optimistically that I WILL see my end result. This is going to be the beginning of the rest of my life.