Really??

Today is a difficult day. Today marks 2 weeks from surgery, and well my scale is killing me. So we all know that my first week had some remarkable results of a total of 19lbs lost. I was amazed and excited to say the least. Now after following the rules I get on the scale and I have actually gained a pound. It doesn’t make sense. During the week I was down 2 or 3 more pounds and now I get on the scale this morning and up 1…WHAT?? I am embarrassed. I am sick to my stomach. I mean I understand that my first week was a huge loss, but seriously is this normal?? I mean I have started working out and eating the foods I should, and this is what I get back. I want to cry, I want to lie in bed and not get out. It seriously just sickens me. I know that I just need to realize that its ok and my body is just adjusting to all the changes, but seriously that is just easier said then done. I have sent an S.O.S to some of those in the clinic, hoping they can offer up some words of advice, maybe even letting me know that it is somewhat normal. I did not realize exactly how much mental plays a part in this life change until yesterday and today. I am holding my head up, although it is heavy and seems to fall here and there. Lets hope for the best for next week.